Diary Entry#12/03/13 – So there’s this guy…

Hey

I know I disappeared again. Forgive me. It’s been crazy couple of months at work travelling here and there but been good all the same. Things are going so great for my career at the moment, so as tired as I am I can’t complain. Life in general is really busy but really good actually, for both work and social life.  A significant amount of my free time has become me and Mr time.

So yes there is a new man in my life. Was thinking of what I shall call him on here… Mr Big (how very Carrie Bradshaw of me lol he’s not like that Mr Big but the name is apt )
To be honest it’s all happened fast and come as a surprise to me but we have quickly become more serious fixtures in each other’s lives. I’ve met his parents andthen he met my whooole family – Mum, Dad, brother, Auntys, Uncles, Grandma the whole shabang lol at a family party. He loved them!

But to backtrack a bit; I’ve actually known Mr Big for a few years as we went to the same University and know a lot of the same people, him being a few years senior. To be honest I thought he was good looking but I found him and his friends really really annoying. I very much limited any interaction with eye rolling. Almost a year ago we crossed paths again at my house party but it was his friend who was on my case. However his friend had a girlfriend and thought I would not find out! Yh, that was quite funny when I asked if she would join us for our first date … lol anyway to add another complexity he had a drunken make out session with one of my friends during uni days. So when he stepped to me around the end of last year I was like this is one messy situation I’d rather not be part of. He really wanted me to get to know him, find out who he really is and that he was not like his friend, give him a chance.

I had no intention of taking him seriously I found it all very amusing. But I have been pleasantly surprised he is just not who I had previously judged him to be. After giving him such a hard time; He has shown me he is not who I thought he was but in an ironic twist of fate that he’s exactly what I said I want. Crazy huh? I mean sometimes I can see he is making a point to show me that I should take him seriously but most of the time it’s when he’s just being him and I get to know him more that I’m just blown away. Like if someone told me a few years ago that we’d be here I would not have believed them at all. And he probably wouldn’t have either as he says, back in the day I was always ‘extremely uninterested’ and never single lol, and he was young living the studentlife! The whole thing has just snuck up and surprised us both lol. We have also very much surprised our mutual friends but they are all really happy for us.

He makes me laugh all the time. He’s not threatened by my achievements or career he always wants to know more. He encourages and inspires me too, in the way he handles his business and career, he wants to learn French something I have been doing on and off for years – he is like well baby, we are going to do it together! We are both in similar places with our career. He’s book smart and street smart so we read the same things and we have crazy fun together too. He talks about future us and settling down. We have amazing chemistry, everything is so so so very hawt *fans self* He is definitely my type in looks! I really like him.

I guess you could say things have moved quickly between us, even so I am very much living in the moment and enjoying seeing how things go. He’s definitely been more expressive than I was. I suppose  I’ve been somewhat guarded, I wasn’t really nervous about him though. Nope I was actually nervous about me, about getting too caught up again, become dependent on anyone, opening myself up. But I decided eff it! live fearlessly! (post to follow).

We both have a giggle about how life is funny and the interesting path we have taken to get to the point we are at now. Who would have guessed it ? But yeah basically to update you guys that’s my baby

Kisses

Dollm

Diary Entry #14/01/13 -Update on Love (part 2) …Him

I’ve dated quite a bit over the last 6-7months. I have found dating sometimes fun, strange, boring, interesting and awkward.

Some guys have been total loosers, or boring as board. Some have been nice enough for a few dates, good looking, good jobs etc but I was enjoying being free and single for the first time as an adult really.
I enjoyed flirting with who I want,
being selfish with my time, going out an wild partying as I pleased. And with me working away a lot to maintain a relationship would require some effort. And to be frank no one was that amazing for me to give up young single life and put in that amount of effort. I’m in a good space I don’t need anyone to come and mess with that.

After being in a relationship for so long I’m just not willing to jump into one for the sake of it or just to say that I have a man. I was happy living for me for once. Putting me first.

But as you know there’s always that one guy… I was super dubious about him as I’ve known/experienced him and his crew and their reputation from when we were at University. To say I have given him a hard time would be an understatement. When we were on our first date I pretty much told him that I think he’s full of shit. He’s been trying to show me otherwise.
Despite my eye rolling there are some things I really like about him;

we have fun together – I refuse to be in a miserable boring relationship again! I’m young and I need excitement lol we can have fun at the club with my friends and his friends, dinner for two or a night in on the sofa.

He’s older but not that much older my friends were like hurrah someone who is not ancient – lol they so rude !

He works in a simular world to me we both have to live that coorperate life when at work.

We have a lot in common - in his words we are ‘compatible’. He is intelligent, ambitious, confident and has a very simular outlook on life as me. You already know intelligence and confidence is sexy as hell to me

He’s very good looking but more importantly I’m attracted to him very much so …sigh. We have very very strong chemistry. Not sure if I have had such a strong connection with anyone in this way. I mean yh the frenchman but that was on some fairytale/rom-com movie ish. I mean like real life connection lol. I thinks its whats kept me on and intrigued dedpite the fact ‘I didn’t take him seriously’ at first

That said I wouldn’t say I have deep feelings for him, yet but he makes me laugh and smile – and we can’t get enough of each other. We’ve had an interesting backstory to where we are today (whole other post) but I’ve been pleasently surprised and happy and he sees this going the distance, he wants to show me off, spend time with me etc – Things that were lacking with my previous I’m slowly learning to accept from my present.

Although I personally think I had good reasons to be cynical (e.g. His friend tried to date me but didn’t realise I knew he had a gf just 1 part of the backstory) I think I have used some of that to not get caught up. Everyone I’ve dated since Mr X I’ve kept at arms length, with him whilst still treading cautiously, we’ve gone further, we’ve got to know each other and we just do as we feel.

He’s not Mr X. He’s someone different and thats another thing I really like about him cos that difference already feels better!

Kisses

Dollm

Diary Entry #14/01/13- Update on Love (part1)…In Paris

The frenchman …sigh. Last I wrote I was falling head over heels in lust and infactuation lol. There was just something everything about this dude. I had to go to Paris for work so spent sometime with him there -sidenote everyone in Paris is attractive …seriously everyone!

Him, Me and Paris oh baby, oo lala I was on a high for days after! I think I mentioned before that he is a soldier so I wasn’t taking it too seriously but I definetly enjoyed the ride. With my work and his work being so hectic I couldn’t commit to more than that and now we are really good friends.
He still tells me that I’m his belle fille-translation beautiful girl *swoons* and I said -”we’ll always have Paris…”

Bisous (Kisses)

Dollm

Diary Entry #07/01/13 – Looking back at me from here.

So I as I’ve been returning to blogging I decided to take a look at some old posts and I came across last years resolutions resoultions/happiness
People moan about not sticking to resolutions and the cynics say people never change …. You wanna see how I faired?

1. Graduate this year with a 1st class masters degree.
- Not only did I get a 1st class Masters degree. I got the top grade in my year. I won 3 awards and was honored and awarded at this very posh do by some of the most elite and prestitious scientisits at and awards ceromny in central London only a few months ago for my dissertation project.

2. Pass my driving test  ok so not quite but I’ve made progress I have like two lessons a week now as I really need to drive for my job and have a company car waiting with my name on it! I’m pretty sure my driving instructor has got greyer but I’m getting there.

3. Figure out what direction I want to take my career
- I’d be lying if I said I know exactly what I want to do/be but I am really enjoying what I’m currently doing which is project management. And I am making big steps forward in my career already. I have also figured out what I’m not interested in doing and have a clear plan for the next couple of years. I have great career mentor and coaches who are helping me achieve this. I have been identified as someone they want to fastrack to senior manangement. What I do know is that in the next 4 years I’ll be running a multi-million pound business.

4. Make a whole leap-a-money -ok so I’ve only been working three months so I’m not rich …yet. I am however on very good pay for someone straight out of University. More than some of my peers and even colleagues who have been working longer so I feel very blessed and on track with this goal as this is just my starting salary. What I said this time last year which coincides with above was that ultimately I don’t want to be making some big cheese CEO rich forever but that I want to be that CEO and eat that chedder lol. Also I recieved money from prizes and awards last year.

5. Stay healthy -well the start of 2012 didn’t bare to well for this one as I had to have an operation due to my medical condition. Slap bang in the middle of my final year. But it didn’t stop me from achieving and now I am fully recovered and healthy- THANK YOU. ( in terms of my medical condition – been slacking on the gym tho lol)

6. Grow in my faith - I have attended church for years but couldn’t really say I had strong faith. Although I do love going to church now (admittedly dont make it every week). I have found my faith has grown in more private moments. A few months ago I started reading daily devotionals and bible study like word for today which puts it into real life context. Taking notes then meditating. I do thia everynight before bed. And my life has transformed. To know God is to know Love and I can feel that in every part of my life. I have never been happier and more grateful and now feel and understand Gods presence in my life. I’m not a perfect christian, I don’t bible bash, I still have fun but I do feel closer to God.

7. Be happy & get my self confidence back.
Done and done lol. This time last year I thought this was the least tangible and achievable of my resolutions. I had just split up with an ex, totally heart broken and stressed with University and just life.
That was then and its just incredible how things can take a turn. Letting go was the best thing I ever did. Because I was able to live my own life. I had an amazing summer filled with fun and laughter and now I’m living the life I want. I’m seeing someone I have fun with, who makes me smile and treats me how I want to be treated. But its me who has chosen to be happy and the fact I have achieved 1-6. I’ve let go of insecurities, anger and baggage shit I ain’t got no worries

To be honest I had completely fogot I wrote these but its exactly what my heart wanted and so I am happy that I can look back to find I’ve pretty much done it. As for this year I have already got a list I didn’t do it for the new year per se infact I did it a couple months ago and I meditate on these things as part of my nightly routine then the next day get up and do it/ get it. I have already been crossing off things on the list. In the post last year I included a quote saying “a goal written down is half a goal achieved”. Its definelty true give it a go.

Kisses

Dollm

Diary Entry# 08/07/12 – Been busy smiling

I have been ghost and neglectful to blogging #fail!! I’m sorry. I have just been so busy; living life. I don’t even know where to start …. Well I graduated, it was such a wonderful day amazing, I’ve never felt so proud of myself. My mum, Grandma, Dad and little brother came up to Manchester for the occasion. Ive never seen them so proud. I had my hair done my make up did; I have never felt more beautiful. Words serioualy can’t describe the feeling myself and my coursemates had that day. We worked so hard for this day, I went through so much this year after so many downs I made it with a big win! I Collected my first class masters degree and over £600 pounds for prizes I was awarded. After that it was just up from there I’ve been having so much fun. I start work as project manager in September so im living life like everyday is a weekend till then lol

Im truly grateful and blessed. I am good, well and very happy and going to be back to blogging. Missed you all

 

Kisses

Dollm

Diary Entry# 7/07/12- I heart Shorditch London, I heart Jamaica (Cray nights out)

I write this after a day of sitting on my sofa nursing a hangover I have been partying like a rockstar recently at some of Londons best FREE events.
Ok so seeing Damien Marley wasn’t free for everyone but I was taken free of charge so that counts and he was amazing.

Puma yard

Puma are hosting an 17 days & nights in honour of TeamJA (Jamaican Olympic team) in Shorditch, Brick lane. I went the Saturday before last for Bump Vs Puma and had an amazing time, ate jerk chicken drank rum punch and whined up myself lol. The crowd was amazing  just cool and ready to have fun typical shorditch vibe. I was drunk as funk and gave out my no. A few too many times which I never do in a club but its all good . I also met a group of women who me and my friends clicked with instantly we invited them out to a street party which we all headed to the next day.

So still hungover from Saturday we went out in the rain with wellies  and crop-tops to the Addidas do-over block party. The sun came out and it was pure vibes again the people  were cool and funky, met a Tupac look-alike dude was fine as hell all the ladies (myself included) were taking pics and gushing over him. Had to violate my not giving out my number rule for him too lol (besides it wasn’t a club). But yh the next day remembered that he weren’t actually Tupac he’s cool though. Oh and guess who came through to the block party? Only Damian Marley twice in one weekend.

The Adidas Do-over block party

This weekend yet in another night out to Shorditch we hit up big chill bar for some bashment vibes. But the reason for my headache right now is my night out to celebrate the 50th year of independence . Being raised by a Jamaican mother I was so excitied for the day itself especially after watching Usain Bolt and Yohan Blake mashing up the 100m the night before.

Puma yard bar – Wray n Ting cocktail is the reason for my headache today

Man last night was nice!!! Me and the girls and my new girls were again at the PumaYard, we watched Bolt and Blake get their medals on the big screens they had and  waved our flags for the anthem. Then the rum started to pour and reggae riddims ran. The artist Gyptian came on love him and those dreads and just when I thought it couldn’t get better Shaggy and Gappy ranks joined him on stage. I dont care what anybody says no music is as sweet as reggae music!

Gyptian and Shaggy Puma yard

There is a lot going on in London with the Olympics on. I had an amazing day with my baby brother going to see the torch and hanging out at the south bank. My parents went out to the Jamaica house and the Trinidad house for a great time. The Dutch house is where we got some olympic tickets sssshhhh and soaked up some Dutch culture. I’m going to try the Indian area and gonna hit Puma yard one more time and go to the I love Jamaica day next weekend. Have a look out and see whats going on for adults and kids because theres lots to see and do this summer.

Party Kicks- A lot of MEN??? have told me how much they like theses

The pumayard ends this weekend for anyone intetested. But shorditch area always has things going on. I always have my best nights out there. Its not commercial very raw full of hipsters but laid back. You know none of the pretentiousness of the west end rock up in ur funky kicks and be ready to party hard! This is why I lurrve it.

Btw I am so proud to be of Jamaican heritage. Happy 50th Birthday Jamaica! The land we love. See you in 2013!!!

Diary Entry# 05/07/12 – Holiday to the beautiful Crete, Greece

I spent 8nights in the beautiful island of Crete, Greece.

After everything I’ve had to deal with over this past year it was a much needed rest… Well kind of, as we managed to pack so much into our short stay .

It was absolutely beautiful we stayed in a gorgeous two storey villa within a hotel complex with a private poolside terrace with breath taking views of the coast and horizon. It was gorgeous though we hardly spent anytime there! We were out every morning exploring crete. We would only come back in the evening to eat, shower, change and head back out again for a night out.

Early morning view from our terrace

We were staying in a small traditional Greek village called Koutouloufari which was a short walk from the main resort Hessonisos where you had all the beaches, nightclubs and entertainment. We were also really close to party and drunk Brit central Malia where we went raving a couple of nights. Malia is full of under 25year old British tourists ready to party and get paralytically drunk. All the ‘mandem’ are just tryna ‘bang doe’ (english grime song). There were some cute guys… But what happens in Malia …. Loooool

Village of Koutouloufari

We went to different beaches and the water was so amazing I wouldn’t get out of it. I think we went to a beach 6 out of the 7days. So that detox I didbefore I went was sooo useful, *warning about to toot own horn* bikini bod was on point. I received many compliments out there and on viewing pics on return except  my big cousin who said ”next time wear a 1 piece and sarong” he said I had too much on show *snooooooooorrrreeeee*. Anyway we found the best beach in Crete on our penultimate day. The water was clear and the sand white.

complimentary cocktails from a gorgeous Grecian man just for being gorgeous bikini girls lol

On another day we hired bikes for a day and cycled to beaches in Stallis and Malia. We also got rides on the back of some greek guys motorcycles for our first night out to Malia. We went jet skiing, para-gliding, a boat ride and a beach party in Hesonnisos

These were frigging orgasmic

On the saturday we visited the city Heraklion to go to the markets. As I love going to markets abroad and trying all their fresh fruit and veg. And because we are clever little girls we didn’t get conned into booking a trip to the market which costs €19. Nope we got on the bus there for €3 return.

We also went to a traditional Cretian night. Up in the village. They had music and dancing in the square with fire and plate smashing, even whilst eating they kept dragging me up to dance . Oh and the food there was amazing!!! Grilled Halumi cheese, fried calamri, greek salad, fried sardines and a constant flow of Raki. Which is a traditional spirit made from grape skin (I think). Man that sh+t is strong – on the level of Jamaican white rum! they kept giving us more by the time I got in the taxi to the clubs I was totally wasted. That was one of my favourite evenings.

I was a mess after a few too many

 The weather was crazy hot averaging 35 degrees. I always say  I don’t want to be a typical Briton walking around everyday streets and shops in a bikini whilst on holiday. When the local people are fully clothed. But damn some days I even wanted to fling of that bikini top loool.

The Greek people were so kind, warm and friendly. Some of the men slightly very pervy but we just took it on the chin. Can’t say the same for some of the Hungarian tourists we came across one night out – racists bastards is all I’ll say. But we didn’t let that spoil anything.

I will say us English have a terrible rep abroad though. A greek guy started speaking to us in dutch; when he noticed the dumbfounded expressions on our faces he said ‘you english?’ We nodded and he responded with ‘but you dress too nice to be english???’

I don’t think I’ve even covered half of everything we got up to (all legal … I think) as like I said we did and saw so much. Met great people and tanned like crazy.

Day 2!!!

If anyone is stuck for somewhere to go this summer I recommend KRETA!!

Kisses

Dollm